39 Days In:

Today is officially my 39th day out here in Utah. It feels like a really long time in one sense, but also a really short time to have experienced so much. I’ve learned a lot since coming out here, so I just wanted to write some stuff down to remind myself of how much I’ve learned and done.

  1. Being alone. This is a huge thing, especially when you move to a new place, but especially when you’re only there for half a year. I mean, do you make friends or just avoid it so it’s easier to leave? I decided not to force OR avoid anything. My roommate is great and has introduced me to her friends, so that’s really nice, and I would consider the people I work with to be friends, but we see each other so much we’re not necessarily going to hangout outside of work.
    So far I’ve attended an Asian festival, gone to a few soccer games, studied at coffee shops, and gone to the gym and hiked all by myself. It’s been sad at times, but also nice when random people come up to me and talk to me. It’s also been nice to be alone in general, so I can reflect more. Sometimes it’s lonely, sometimes it’s just being by myself. I’ll probably attend some Triple A baseball games, AHL hockey matches, and some concerts by myself, but that’s okay. Learning how to be alone is really important.

Well, that’s been it so far. I’m sure there’s more, but I can’t really think of stuff right now, I’m fried from studying and I also need to go back to it, but I have work tomorrow…I love not being in school, but the early hours can be rough sometimes!



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Jen Xu

Athletic trainer, PhD student, coffee lover. I write about fitness, mental health, being Asian-American, and personal growth.